Wednesday, April 27, 2011

for whatever we lose (like a you or a me)/ it's always ourselves we find in the sea.

Get ready for a bittersweet week on the blog this week. I'm just warning ya. Well, ok more for me than you probably, but I think it will hit home for many.

I have started this post so many times, and so many times I have found myself at a loss. But then I remembered this quote (in the blog title) from E.E Cummings and it just fit. Those of you who have been blog followers for a while will recognize these kids. 2 are mine, of course, and 2 are our best friends. Have you ever just found a friend who clicked? Who you can cry to, laugh with, and confide in. Someone who will tell you the truth when you need it and lie to your face when you ask if you look ok after 1 hour of sleep and too many cups of coffee? That's who my friend Terra is to me. And her kids. Oh those kids. There are very few people on this earth I would jump in front of a moving vehicle for, but those kids are high on my list. I don't have any nieces or nephews yet, but how I feel for these kids is what I imagine I will feel for them. They are my kids honorary cousins. So many times we have walked together through the mall and had people do a double take trying to figure out if we've got 2 sets of twins, or which kids are whose.
A few months ago, Terra called and told me that her husband Matt had been offered a job in New Jersey. I have to admit, I didn't think they'd go. They both have family here. Terra has never lived anywhere but Florida. But she's also a big city girl at heart, and the chance to live minutes from THE big city, well that was enough to lure her away. Tomorrow they'll be on their way, and my emotions have been in a tizzy all day.
These kids have literally grown up together. Mason and Grady were just babies when we met, and we shared our pregnancy with the little ones. We've always referred to Finn and Maddie as "the twins" and I even dressed Finn as Maddie for his first halloween. They've shared double strollers, trips to Disney World, pacifiers, pajamas, and countless pizzas. And when I think of all that being cut down to once every six to 12 months, it's a little too much for me to take in at once. Thank God for skype, because I am not sure how we would get through this if it were 1982.
To say they will be missed is an understatement, and yet I am so excited to see where this journey takes my sweet friends.
This image is so THEM.
Remember we love you, remember we miss you.Remember our doors are always open when you visit. Remember the sun at your back and the sand between your toes. For whatever we lose (like a you or a me), it's always ourselves we find in the sea.


Autumn said...

You know I feel your pain! Terra is awesome and being away is hard but you will see that your friendship will remain strong. Xoxo

stacey said...

What a beautiful post Courtney! I remember Finn in Maddie's dress - he made almost as cute a girl as she is. But you know, you could always visit NJ. I promise you will find Terra there waiting along with a bunch of crazy Northerners more than willing to welcome you!

Kori Clark said...

Yep, tears just like I thought! I know how hard it is to live so far from friends you love so fiercely, and I can only imagine growing with their children makes it that much harder. You girls are so blessed to have found the friendship you found and there is no doubt in my mind you will remain the same friends for a lifetime ahead of you, no matter the miles. Love you both and amazing wishes for T and her family!!

Terra said...

Missing you guys!